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今天和宁宁讨论了4月号的杂志里我能贡献什么东西，订了时间表。下两周把McQueen的稿子做了，也算是对这个我超级喜爱的人表示一点敬意吧。其实我最有兴趣的，还是做访问。和人谈话，倾听，沟通，这是生命里非常迷人的一部分经验。现在也算开启这种体验之旅，好好享受吧！

最近手上都涂着浅蓝色的指甲油，好像带动生活也有了一种浅蓝色的意味：轻盈、洁净、快乐！

虽然忙，但规划合理、精确无误地前行，一切都没有问题！

刚刚意识到，今年是2010年了，世界杯，南非！

看了看时间表，又忍不住皱起了眉头。6月底7月初，正是最忙最焦头烂额的时候。

什么时候才能真的象小时候梦想的一样，亲临一次世界杯的现场呢？！

不要再说什么4年之后的巴西这样的话了。35岁，不用猜测，毫无悬念，铁定又有什么要忙，铁定又是走不开。

忽然很不高兴，觉得人生荒谬。

小时候拼命努力长大，幻想一旦长大，当时实现不了的梦想就能成真。

可真的长大以后呢，才发现，小时候的梦想成不成真早就变的不重要了，甚至，很多梦想都已经在成长的过程中遗失掉了，忘了。

又象小时候总会爱上经历丰富不寻常的人，心里欢喜着，又害怕，幻想自己是去拥抱太阳的小尘埃，暗淡而微不足道，差着几亿光年的距离。于是拼命想快点长大，快点经历，快点变成一颗同样沧桑而坚定的恒热发光体。但真去做了，才发现，当初的爱已经流失，永远消散在宇宙中，再也无从寻觅了。

那么，我们到底为了什么在岁月中拼命地努力着成长呢？！

忙忙碌碌的意义难道就是为了让自己变成一个麻木不仁再也不会因梦而爱的大人么？

拼命地攥紧拳头就是为了更快地把生命的水分挤干么？

昨晚去滑铁卢英国电影协会的imax看了Avatar。真土啊！到现在才看，哈。

整整160分钟又哭又笑，完全被震傻了。当漫天飘起那些精灵植物的时候，我也不禁伸出手想去触摸它们。

回来在网上立刻又订了一场，才9镑5就有这样的视觉盛宴，太值了！在网上看见一些冷嘲热讽的评论，说内容苍白情节老套人物脸谱化，还说故事不好等等，忍不住就和对方一番唇枪舌剑。本来发言的还是一个我挺喜欢的女科学家，一生气，退订。道不同不相与谋！：）

其实革新电影的观看方式是最实在拉观众回影院的方式。反正这个电影要是不在imax看其实就没必要看了。

又订了下礼拜的《爱丽斯仙境漫游》和下下礼拜纽约大都会歌剧《哈姆雷特》，上次和老王在这里看〈浮士德的天谴〉还历历在目呢。爱丽斯我可是冲着Johnny Depp来得呦！

等着电影开场的时候，我穿过地下通道走到国王学院外面的小广场上买咖啡，慢慢一个人走了几步路。天气已经暖和了，脚上的靴子喀喀地扣着地面，内心很是满足喜乐。哎呀，我真爱这样的伦敦的夜晚。

喂，生活，你美好死我算了！

这个节目好好看啊！就是不在国内，要不然我也去报名参加节目了。赫赫

节目设计得好，整个过程把好多男女互相挑选试探找感觉的细节都突显了出来，而且还有很多戏剧化的冲突。

我个人一见钟情的男生是第六期的第一个主持人老师俞闵，哈哈，就是险些24盏灯全亮的那位同学喽。光看外在谈吐实在是很yummy。不过这种男人生活里好不好相处呢？那大概又是另一回事了，尤其是这个情绪剧烈的问题。怕怕。

女孩呢，如果我是男的，最心动者是马伊咪。

最感动的瞬间当然是王璞和胡毅栋牵手，这是出于我对胖女孩永远的感同身受，我的成长和心理大概和她最接近。有个细节，别的男孩在最后关头走上前去牵意中人的手，都是主动地把手拉起来，可胡同学走过来的时候却先和王璞握手，然后是王璞主动捉住了他的手——哎，不得不感慨啊！我们胖女孩容易嘛我们！希望他们能真的在一起哦！王璞，还是要加油减肥啊，这样才能真的牢牢抓住他。毕竟男人是无论如何也跳不过外貌这一关的，这是亘古不变的真理。

这回在哥本哈根现代艺术馆还看了一个印象非常深刻的摄影展：“Jacob Holdt眼中的美国”。

在现场每一张每一张观看这些真实反映美国70年代社会现状的照片，我的感觉除了震撼还是震撼。这是wiki上对Jacob Holdt的介绍，他的人生经历可谓惊心动魄，一切的缘起是1970年代他装着40块美元就踏上美国大地的旅行。大家自己看吧，我就不转译了：

Jacob Holdt (born 1947 in Copenhagen, Denmark) is a Danish photographer, writer and lecturer.

Passing through the United States in the 1970s with $40 in his pocket, Jacob Holdt was shocked and fascinated by the social differences he encountered. He ended up staying in the USA more than five years, criss-crossing the country by hitchhiking more than 150,000 miles and recording his impressions on film.

He sold blood plasma twice a week to buy film. He stayed in more than 400 homes – from the poorest migrant workers to America’s wealthiest families (for instance, the Rockefellers) – recording these encounters over 3000 photographs taken with a cheap camera. His work captures the daily struggle of the American underclass and contrasts it with images of the life of America’s elite. Upon returning to Denmark in 1977, Holdt began lecturing on social differences in the United States and published a book: American Pictures ISBN 87-981702-0-1, which is available on Holdt’s website. He later presented his slideshow at over 300 college campuses across the United States.[2] [3]

American Pictures had a profound impact on the youth in Scandinavia and Germany, and the Communist bloc saw a chance to use his work against President Carter’s human rights campaign. Holdt was approached by the KGB a few months after his slideshow became a success and he saw a chance with the help of the Soviet Union to penetrate the Marxist bureaucracy in Angola. Here it was his intention to spend the money earned from American Pictures in building a hospital in support of the anti-apartheid struggle.

However, when his book was published in 1977 the KGB revealed to him that it was their intention to use it in an all-out campaign against Carter to try to demonstrate that human rights were just as bad off in America as in Russia. Only a month after its publication Holdt therefore hired his lawyer, Søren B. Henriksen, to stop his own book all over the world. Except for Germany, Holland and Scandinavia, where they already had contracts with his Danish publisher, he managed to stop it, and did not release it again until the end of Communism.

As a result of losing most of his expected income from the book, Holdt could not finance a hospital, but only a nursing school built for the Namibian resistance group SWAPO in Kwanzu Zul in Angola with matching funds from the European Union. After the liberation of Zimbabwe in 1982 he also supported projects there. At the end of the cold war he was briefly accused of having been a KGB-agent, but it was easy for his publisher, Dagbladet Information, to show that he had actually worked for the other side and had even flown President Carter’s human rights envoy over to approve his film manuscript intended for the American market.

Since 1991, Holdt has worked as a volunteer for CARE in several third-world countries. He has continued to document the lives of those in poverty while working for CARE.

His most recent projects have also focused on white supremacist hate groups. Holdt spent time living with leaders of the Ku Klux Klan and photographing their daily lives. Holdt is sympathetic with the people he encountered in these groups, pointing out that most grew up under marginal circumstances and often were victims of child abuse. Holdt emphasizes the similarities in background between white supremacists and poor minorities.

Holdt’s ability to capture representations of the “filthy rich” and poverty in America resulted in him being nominated as one of the four shortlisted photographers for the Deutsche Börse Photography Prize 2008. At the exhibition at The Photographer’s Gallery in London Holdt presented his photographs for the prize in an effective and mesmerizing slideshow – each image beamed onto a plain white wall in a darkened room, immersing the audience in the dark and dreary world of poverty and maximizing the impact.

Holdt lost out on the prize to the photographer Esko Männikkö from Finland.

From 02.10.2009 until 07.02.2010 Holdt’s pictures were exhibited in Louisiana Museum of Modern Art.

前一阵子，写麦田里的守望者的塞林格去世了。这本小说我只粗粗翻过，没认真看过，但其中的精神内核我想我是能够体会的。虽然我的个性决定了自己会走一条遵守社会规则，承担世俗责任的道路，但对于这些常人口中的离经叛道者，我特别理解和支持（但不羡慕）。也许只有在丹麦这样民主自由风气盛行的国度，才有可能产生出很多象Jacob这样用自己的整个人生去行走的人。他把自己的生活交织到了他的旅行和他的观察中，和所有拍摄对象都是零距离接触。因此那些简陋的照片才会如此震撼。他用自己活生生的血肉之躯去碰撞过了，用自己全部的时间去度过过了。这种投入生命的方式是那些所谓的世俗成功没有办法比拟的。

其实人活在这个世界上，最幸福的就是做自己, 找到自己的热情所在。这样子的话，无论你选择去行走或者安居，选择面对外部世界或转向内省，你的内心都将是充盈丰满而坚定快乐的。

尽管如标题所言，这是尽人皆知的美容秘密。但对于我来说，睡觉一直都是很奢侈的事情，多年来我的睡眠时间就从来没有充足过。

在睡不好觉的前提下，再怎么保养又有什么用处呢？

我也就是看中安慰剂效应吧——

今天收到ebay上订来的日本胶原蛋白果汁，此刻就体会到不在中国生活的缺点——在伦敦，这种东西可是稀罕物，遍寻不获。幸好我们生活在网络时代！

回家的路上又买了新一期vogue和伦敦书评。恩，形式和内容——两手都要抓，两手都要硬喽！：）

先喝两个月看看效果哈！老妈和姐妹们，我给你们当试验品先！

包了两种口味的饺子。哈哈！干劲十足啊！

网上看直播的春晚，最激动当然还是小虎队出场的时候了！初一的时候，我作为6个女孩之一，在全校新年联欢晚会上代表初一四班跳了现代舞“爱”，一听到这个熟悉的旋律，心跳都要停了，眼泪止不住地一直流。你们觉得这三位中谁变化最大？我觉得是苏有朋。处女座大概就是这样子，小时候和长大后完全是判若两人，外貌气质全变了。

”周末午夜别徘徊，

快到苹果乐园来，

欢迎流浪的小孩，

不要在一旁发呆，

一起大声地呼喊，

向寂寞午夜说byebye

音乐 星光 样样都浪漫

烦恼 忧愁 都与我无关”

——欧耶！：）

不是那位知名的低垂着头的美人鱼，这位美人鱼出自丹麦女雕塑家Anne Marie Carl-Nielsen之手.我在丹麦国家图书馆“黑钻”的外面发现了她。

实在是太难过了！真的没想到！真的没想到！真的没想到！

天才的命运大概就是这般戏剧化。Rest in peace.

（刚刚查wiki，他居然是3月17号生人！！！为什么我爱的人都是这天生的？)

一想到要过年了我就高兴！！！

这两天忙着在msn上给大家伙磕头拜年，赫赫，被笑称为“走在时间前面的人”。：p